Drained

Took my first paper ytd.
And killed many brain cells.
Could only secure like at most half the marks.
Gosh.
Hardest math paper so far for all 3 sems.
Well the only good thing is tat its over.
That module.
1 down, 4 more to go.
The thing is, I've got less than 2 days to study for 2 modules.
Somehow, it has come to this.
Which leaves me with 2 options.
Mug like I've never mugged b4 the next few days.
Or juz mug normally.
Like 6 hours a day.
The latter is appealing, but somehow I'm convinced its not enough.
Oh well, I may juz come up with a 3rd option and do crazy stuff, haha :P
I'm juz not used to mugging too hard on weekends.
Its sortof my lifestyle le, cant reli change much.
At most mug like 5 hours over the 2 weekend days?
And that's super rare.
I did it like a few times my entire life?
Anyway, I'm juz rambling and raving here.
Dont take me seriously :D
Feel like giving up.
But I know I cant.
I can only pray tat tml will be a better day.
Pray tat I'll be refreshed!
To continue mugging.
Till it doesnt matter anymore.
Its reli hard to stop myself.
From slacking, playing, chilling.
I think I'm not cut out to be a uni student.
Cant take the workload.
Too much content.
Whenever I juz think of the amt I hav to absorb its enough to induce a headache.
Thank God for frens tat care :)
You noe u're one of them if u are reading this :)

I've decided to take a stand on certain things.
To believe in what I think is right, even when the whole world thinks its wrong.
Ok maybe not the whole world, but it seems like the whole world to me.
Who defined right and wrong in the first place anyway?
Darkness is the absence of light.
But is a wrong the absence of a right?
Or issit something that's merely defined by customs, traditions and culture.
Is there an absolute right/wrong to everything?
All of us probably hav our own definitions of wad is right and wrong.
And for certain things, we say that its a 'gray area'.
But thank God that He doesnt judge us based on right and wrong.
Jesus came so that all the wrong things could be and they have already been made right.
Jesus didnt come to introduce us to a set of rights or wrongs.
He came to show us the true meaning of love, which covers every wrongdoing in our life :)
I'm not advocating sin; I'm juz telling u who Jesus is and why He had to come.
Sin is not a problem to Him.
'Cos I believe that He is better at saving than I am at sinning.
Do you?
Anyway He came to save sinners, not righteous people.
For this I'm glad I belong to the former and not the latter.
By His blood I hav eternal redemption.
Forever accepted before God :)
He was the perfect offering.
And we need to start realising what He truly purchased for us at the Cross!
Forgiveness of sins is juz the tip of the iceberg.
He definitely did so much more when He hung there 2000 years ago!

Yay I juz secured a date with Brandon after my exams.
Time to catch up after a loooong while :D
Sometimes I dont know hu to turn to.
But God nv fails to put diff people in my life :)
I guess I need to learn to let go too.
Holding on can be fatal sometimes.
Or rather many times.
Letting go creates uncertainty.
Maybe fear?
Doubts?
But it is such an impt lesson to learn.
I'm glad I'm always learning.
Seeing things from a diff perspective.
What is the truth?
It'll take a book to fully explain.
But when you know the truth, it will set u free indeed :)