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I wonder if its possible to experience mixed emotions at the same time... Apparently empirical evidence tells me tat it is indeed possible... It was wad I experienced this past week =/ There were mixed feelings of anxiety, resignation, joy and sadness... Sometimes I reli wonder if I made the right choice in choosing this course... Even thought of quitting sch b4... Did I slap myself in the face when I decided to take up Econs as well?
N the question is not whether u are struggling but how well are u struggling? On the day b4 my Linguistics Quiz, Calculus Midterm results were released... I got 89%, and the cohort avg. was 75%! It was a reli unexpected and pleasant surprise, which spurred me on to study for the next day's test... 30 MCQs, think I tik kam abt 10, lolx... But overall still not tat bad I suppose... Then on Wed C++ Midterm results were released... I got 3.5/10, which was somewhat the best possible score considering tat I didnt do more than half the paper... My first so-called failure, but somehow I knew tat I shdnt juz gif up like tat... Then today got back my Foundations of Math Quiz 1... 65%... Reality is harsh and competition is tough... There can be crazy ppl out there who get 100% for the above 3 tests tat I mentioned, and to them its juz a piece of cake... Sometimes I juz wonder what I'm getting myself into...
Of cos everyone knows tat results r not everything, and shdnt define your self-worth, but I guess in Singapore it has juz become so practical... No paper no job... Oh God help me to learn to look at the bigger picture and not to lose hope... I reli need better time management... Somehow the pressure is on to do well in this first sem... Who doesnt wanna do well? But the sad truth is tat in Uni sometimes the amt of effort u put in juz isnt proportional to the number of marks u get... I can totally understand all the students out there in which this kinda thing happens... U seriously and truly study hard, but at the end of the day the results u get seem to tell u tat u might as well not study, cos u'll prob get the same results... Some ppl say its a matter of studying hard but not studying smart... In any case, the feeling's juz not gd...
20 more days to Doomsday :(((
32 more days to Freedom :)))
Still, in the midst of all this gloom, there's still stuff to look forward to =)
Got an appt with Kai Lun this Sunday; its been a long time since we last met up and I wonder how he's doing in NUS :D
Mon and Tues's GLS!! Last yr was a gd exp and I'm certainly looking forward to it this yr! That shall be my break b4 I reli mug all the way :D
Actually there's so many stuff tat I wanna post but have been uber busy the past week... Do expect less frequent updates from now till 25th Nov, which is exactly one month from now where it'll be my last paper! :)
Oh ya b4 I end this post juz wanna show off some pics I took in sch when Dad came down on Wed to sign my Study Loan Agreement... When you take time off to appreciate stuff, sometimes u see things tat u dont usually see :)
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